No one knows Joshua's fight..

For the past 2+ years....It is daily....it is every moment, every breath, every thought, every movement....

by Angel Thompson on Saturday, September 3, 2011 at 11:18pm

The past 3 days have been hard for Joshua. His PANDAS has caused swelling and intense pain in his "thinking part" of his brain, he calls it. He knows it causes him to have thoughts that are not true and it takes him awhile to sift through it, not to mention the pain that accompanies it. Today he paced in the kitchen screaming to God to take the pain.

A moment outside the lodge at camp. He tries to sift through his thoughts and regroup. Later as we sat in a parking lot while Matt was inside a store he began to pray and ask God to make his PANDAS good so it could FIGHT the bad PANDAS. When he was finished he told me that the good PANDAS was God's knight to protect his brain, his house from the war inside.

As he talked more he began to talk about the wall of Jericho that Joshua defeated as God was with him in the battle. He then said, "the wall of Jericho is like my PANDAS and God's knight is like Joshua."

He is fighting this battle with God…side by side and he is RELYING on HIM.

I am so humbled & challenged as I watch my son's outlook towards this battle with PANDAS, and his dedicated step with Jesus by his side.

Joshua's question:

I had just finished reading Colossians with JT last night and he began singing,"My Yahweh is real". A moment past and he asked, "Mommy, will I always have PANDAS or will it go away when I am an adult?" I told him I did not know, but we would keep taking one day at a time and trusting Jesus. With that he fell asleep.


A PANDAS GLIMPSE. (a short 2 minute clip JT asked me to make so others may understand)