Can I admit that I am tired? Is that allowed? No matter, I am going to admit it anyway.
We praise God for 2 days where Joshua was able to rest in his own bed and have intense laughter, where the paronoid feelings that someone wants to hurt him was decreased. It was a very nice vacation from those symptoms for him.
All though the symptoms are ever present, Joshua amazes me. I cannot put to words, but just know in my mommy heart all that he has accomplished so far and all that he has walked through and in the midst of all of it, he still goes to the ONE who died for him to find comfort. Not a day passes that he does not ask me to pray over his thoughts and ask Jesus to replace them.
Yesterday I left work early because he was struggling with a PANDAS moment, and as I think of this journey, I want to share a section I wrote in 2009.
He meets HIM in a yard filled with dandelions…
Section taken from: Life Inside the Box of a Jigsaw Puzzle
Finding God’s Grace, Strength, Hope and Understanding inside the Spectrum of Autism.
By Angel S. Thompson
Copyright Year: © 2009
Published by Unleashing Potential
All Rights Reserved.
My son has this unique relationship with God. I could sit here and say that I am envious and that I long for that, and yet the truth is…I can have that...I do have that…one that is individual and totally and fully “ours”. (Mine and God's)
The other day as I drove around on the lawn mower cutting our "field", I could not help but to be
captivated by my son who stood in the grass, dandelion “fuzz” flying around him, arms stretched
upward with his face towards the sky. He would stand still and then spin and then stop and sway as if hearing some sweet sound of music only known to him. Later he asked to ride with me and as he nestled his head on my shoulder I asked what he was doing with his arms up in the yard and he said, “Talking to God and praising Jesus.” When asked what they talked about he said “I cannot tell you, because that was God and I talking.” He had found his “prayer closet” and went there to talk with Jesus. Uninhibited by what was happening around him, he was able to “sift” through it and find solace with God.
To understand how profound that is….individuals that have an Autism Spectrum Disorder have a hard time “sifting” through all the noises and sensory things that invade our lives daily. As you are reading this there are sounds happening around you and yet you are able to sit and concentrate to comprehend what is on your screen. For people like my son, it is like the GRAND FINALE at the 4th of July happening inside their head all the time and they have to “sift” through it…so…you can understand why I sat in awe as God and Joshua met in that yard and he and Jesus talked and sang together. It was so intimate that Joshua did not want
to share the details, only that they "met"…because it was HIS TIME with HIS KING.
My son grasps the meaning of Ephesians 3:19, 20. He knows the power Jesus has in his life and he soaks up the fullness that he has been given because he belongs to HIM.
Do you know that you can know that fullness….that power….if you are HIS…it has been promised to you because HIS SPIRIT lives within you! I challenge you today to read Ephesians 3:14-21. Meditate on it, soak it in….then go find your “yard”
and meet Him there…..He’s waiting!
photo from our yard May 2009
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